Trevor's Random Obsessions..

Wow so right after valentines day Ryan’s roommate flipped the fuck out. Apparently Rick, the roommate, is madly in love with Ryan.. Um.. So he confessed his love for Ryan.. And then went nuts. He banned me from their apartment and said if he sees me there he will leave Ryan with the apartment and all the payments.. He also told Ryan that he needs to try out a relationship with him.. Um.. Da fuck?

Long story short.. That’s a ton of da fucks right there.. And I guess that’s all over..

But um.. Without saying anything.. I had a date Sunday.. And I’ve spent three days in a row hanging out! Amazing!

One thing that I’ve noticed since living away from home is this: everyone grows up at their own speed. Moving out on your own for the first time is a huge step in life. Most cps have never been on their own before, I’m in that group. It’s definitely a very scary thing. You actually have to rely on yourself for anything and everything. You have a job, you have payments to make weekly, and plenty of responsibilities that you wouldn’t have even though of.

Some people get into this program and they just aren’t prepared for all this. But that’s not a bad thing. Like I said, everyone goes at their own speed.

During the first few hours, days, and weeks it really hits you, you are on your own. No matter how many friends and family members you have around you, you are still on your own. You are responsible for everything. If you don’t get to work on time it’s your fault. If you don’t buy groceries you don’t have food. If you don’t do laundry or clean up after yourself then your place is a mess.

A lot of people don’t realize that’s what this program is. Yes, it’s a blast. Yes, you can make a world of memories and have the time of your life. But it’s still a learning experience. You are learning how to grow up.

Personally, this past month has been crazy. My hours are insane and random. I worked a 12 hour stock shift yesterday. My roommates didn’t work out so I moved. Best decision ever, but I do miss Ryan. But over-all.. I’ve made amazing new friends, spent hours making magical memories and I just love this place. I guess the program really is what you make out of it.

Anyways after all that.. My point is, we all move at our own speeds, we all need to grow up at some point but it can’t be forced. And when you’re ready for it, do it. You won’t regret it.

K thanks bye!

Anonymous asked: Why are you such a douche?! :)

Um? I think this would bug me if I wasn’t LIVING MY FUCKING DREAMS IN DISNEY. But wait, I am.. So have fun with life.

Hey guys! It’s been awhile hasn’t it? I’ve been super busy at work and just over all with the program. I work at all star resorts in merch and I’m telling you.. It is almost always busy. But I’m having a fucking blast. I have never been happier in my entire life. I was meant for this!! I just go day to day working my ass off but I just can’t get over how much I love it.

I def don’t spend much time in the parks but it’s all good. I’m still having fun. I’m either working or cleaning or at the gym or doing laundry or grocery shopping.. I swear it’s jury busy busy busy..

Oh and I moved out of my old apartment.. It was full of bad memories and the roomies weren’t working out to well. I mean I love Ryan Gideon and Dylan.. But I needed sleep and that just wasn’t happening.. Not sleeping caused me to be unable to eat.. Which caused me to drop 14 pounds in two weeks.. I’m now in a new apartment and finally sleeping.. I’m eating and gaining the weight back.. I’m also working out a lot.. But I’m not just doing that to gain weight..

I met someone.. His name is also Ryan.. I really like this guy. He’s 22 and from Ohio.. He’s a cp but has his own apartment outside of housing.. He wants to stay in Florida just like me.. And hopefully transfer to valencia.. Right now we just want to be friends but we both really like each other.. He said a further relationship is nowhere out of the question. But we both agreed we want to take the titles slow.. But omgosh.. He is a cuddler.. And a good one at that.. I love falling asleep in his arms.. We spent valentines day together at cocoa beach and it was just amazing..

Alrighty well enough about that.. Bye guys!!

It’s funny how someone just won’t let go. They cause so much pain after saying they will always be with you, and leave the next day. Then they spend two weeks slamming you on the Internet. They act like you are some kind of villain.. But what really gets you is it was completely up to them.

Oh well. It’s not like I’m not in Florida, living my dream, never having been happier, and with a bunch of amazing people, right?